Saturday, 2 July 2011

I want to scream!

It's not that I haven't seen Him, it's not that He hasn't trained and disciplined me. It's not that He hasn't complimented me on how well I am progressing nor that He hasn't taken me over His knee and spanked me ... hard. It's not that He hasn't bound me with His ropes, pulled tight so that the marks fade slowly over the coming day. It's not that He hasn't clamped my nipples and my labia ... so hard that I almost orgasm on the spot.


It's not that He hasn't used me, played with me, toyed with me, exploring and owning every part of my body. It's not that He hasn't brought me to orgasm or that He hasn't held me in His iron clasp and made me cum again and again until exhausted and drained I collapse against Him. It's not that I haven't had the chance to sit at His feet and rest my head against His knee until He wishes me to serve Him again.



I have had all that... and more... and delighted in every second of it. I love Him deeply. I have sought in vain for a word to describe the way I feel more strongly: 'love' does not seem to touch the breadth and scale of how I feel. It is too small a word, just one sylable to describe emotions that are impossible to contain within my body; that spill over and shine out through my eyes and face: a radiance that even a passerby cannot fail to notice.... and yet I have a deep craving for more...



It has been promised in the past and I know it is to come, but I need it now! My body, my very being, is pent up and needs the cathartic release. I feel out of sorts with the world. I need to dance and writhe for Him, I need to scream and cry and sob for Him, I need to be in that place where pain and pleasure explode together and nothing else exists. I need His whips and canes and flogger...



For now the screams are silent in my head. He will decide. It will be when the time, the place, the state of mind are right for Him. I trust Him. He knows me better than I know myself, when it is right for Him, then it will be right for me too... I know that: I tell myself a hundred times a day, but right now... I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!

Velvet <3
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8 comments:

  1. Anonymous2 July 2011 at 14:10

    Wonderfully erotic and sensitive and touching post Velvet. You have captured the inner psyche of the sub in a superb manner.
    Simply brilliant,
    joey

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  2. Emily Winters2 July 2011 at 20:43

    Speechless...
    i know, and i know, and i know...
    Emily

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  3. Florida Dom3 July 2011 at 03:55

    Let us know when you scream. That should be a memorable moment.

    FD

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  4. Velvet13 July 2011 at 11:45

    Joey,

    Thank you, I really like that 'the inner psyche of the sub' thank you so very much, sorry I did not reply earlier,

    Velvet <3

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  5. Velvet13 July 2011 at 11:47

    Emily,

    Yes I think you do .....

    winks...

    Velvet <3

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  6. Velvet13 July 2011 at 11:48

    FD,

    A date has been set and the countdown begun... I will let you know...

    Hugs,
    Velvet <3

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  7. wanilianna13 July 2011 at 13:07

    first photo from the top - brilliant!

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  8. Velvet13 July 2011 at 20:52

    Wanilianna,

    Glad you liked it, thanks for stopping by,

    Hugs,

    Velvet <3

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Velvet <3

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